#9 - Trip to the beach

       So today I don't really feel very happy. I just don't want to do anything but I did get talked into going for a walk down the beach which I didn't mind as I did enjoy the walk to the beach. I enjoyed just sitting down and watching Aaliyah play. She loved playing in the sea which was amazing to watch her. We took towels and some drinks and food which was nice. Zoey slept through most of it and just woke to be fed and changed which Joey helped me with so that I was comfortable to feed her. I think we spent like an hour or something down there and I really enjoyed. I know Aaliyah loved playing in the sea and collecting water and making sandcastles with her daddy.

       Joey is such a  good dad to Aaliyah and she is such a polite little girl for 3 years old and being deaf. I can't stop thinking that I was a bitch to my dad though. Especially after what I wrote last night but I just really needed to get it off my chest and get it out there as it did make me feel loads better. I woke this morning feeling really shit and not wanting to let anyone touch Zoey or even take her out of my sight. I spoke to Jhar this afternoon though and only after a quick conversation with her I decided that a little trip out would do me some good. Get some fresh air and sea breeze and it would do Zoey some good too. Plus it meant time as a family. Just Joey, Aaliyah, Zoey and I. It really benefited the girls I know that now.

 I had time to just lie on a beach towel and reflect on what's been a eventful few days and that's to say the least. I had my baby girl on the 9th, went into foster care and found out my dad had died on the 12th. It's now the 13th and I've just got back from the beach which is nice but I am boiling and Zoey is crying and red so catch you all soon