Silent Sunday

Saturday 'Caption Day'

#19 - Back Where She Belongs

As you all know when I left my old foster home I left Aaliyah behind. I felt so guilty I knew she'd become confused quickly and that she'd be very upset. I missed her dearly too. We had phone contact but it just upset her so much. It upset me too but not as much as it did her. Over the weekend I talked to people and brooded so bad about Aaliyah. She'd become like my daughter and I was so close to her.. I missed her laugh and smiles and her telling Zoey she was going to get kisses..
I decided when Monday came I would tell my social worker how I felt and I'm so glad I did. When she came to visit I told her straight away and she told me that she was looking for a new placement for Aaliyah but it was unlikely she'd be placed here as it was a mother and baby placement for me. Also if they were to even consider it then would my foster parents be able to deal with writing 2 fostering logs as they need to.
But on tuesday this happened as another emergency placement and guess whos here

#18 - Routine

I've only been here since Friday and today is Sunday but Zoey seems so much more settled so I've started a routine and it's helping her sleep longer which means she feeds longer so all good really and she's so much more relaxed at feeding time.. As I write this it's feeding time for Zoey which I don't mind.. So just a quick look for you all at Zoey's routine:

12pm - Feed lasting 20 - 40 mins and then winding and bum change then sleep
3pm -Feed lasting 20 - 40 mins and then winding and bum change then sleep
6pm - Feed lasting 20 - 40 mins and then winding
7pm - Bath
7:30pm - Story and bed
9:30 - Feed lasting 20 - 40 mins and then winding and bum change then sleep
1:30 - Feed lasting 20 - 40 mins and then winding and bum change then sleep
3.00 - Feed lasting 20 - 40 mins and then winding and bum change then sleep
5.00 - Feed lasting 20 - 40 mins and then winding and bum change then sleep
9.00 - Feed lasting 20 - 40 mins and then winding and bum change then sleep

#17 - Settling In

I feel so much better in this place than I did the other place. Zoey is more settled and so am I.. I popped out today to meet this lad called Alex and I seemed to want to keep in contact with people because they aren't controlling. Alex and I went back to the house and we've been chilling.

I instantly feel happier here. I can relax and know that if I need help I just need to ask but if I don't I'm left to get on with it and that's what I wanted all along. I want to be the sole carer for my daughter so she isn't confused over who her mummy is. I love it. I can relax as long as I clean up after myself and Zoey.

It's going to sound shocking my next statement as no teenager likes the rules that are put in place for them but I do. Yes you heard right I love these rules. I get to do what I like within reason as long as it isn't silly or harmful to me or Zoey. I get to take her out if I want to and as long as I keep in touch there ok with it and as it isn't late either. I'm being helped with getting Zoey into a routine. It's really nice to have help and that be the end of it unless I want more.

Silent Sunday

Saturday 'Caption Day'